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July 25th, 2004

10:56 am - "im my field of paper flowers....." well, the other night i went to see Evanescence with Mike Bryn and Chris, fuckin amazing.....awesome show....Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace and Seether all rocked as well...ever since then ive been in such and 'evanescence state'...ive never been able to really listen to their cd, when it first came out i got it..not even a week later my sister cracked it, and only the 1st 5 songs played....so day after the show i bout another one, oh man, ive been listening to it non stop...so much better than the 1st 5 songs..lol.. and i was just informed by trish that there are only 8 days left til project revolution...very cool...which also means that there are 11 days til finch with mike n chezzzzzz....so excited bout those shows...ahh yes big news!!!!!...... PRODUCT OF THE 80S IS OPENING UP FOR TRUST COMPANY!! SHOW IS AUGUST 17TH AT THE DOWNTOWN! ALL MUST GO!!!! :-) anyhoo....yesterday was cool, my family went to mikes house for a bbq..maad coolness...its great to know that im gonna be with this person for the rest of my life that our parents should start hanging out..lol ...Bryn and Chris came over as well, which is always awesome, i love hanging with them... oh lovely ..people i barely know and dont like are talking to me online...gotta go...later kiiidddzzz Current Mood: bored Current Music: breaking benjamin- follow

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July 20th, 2004

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July 13th, 2004

12:22 pm - "such enDURIN' pain, that it keeps him in the pourin rain......" "Run, running all the time, run into the future, with you right by my side.....Me, im the one you chose, out of all the people, you wanted me the most...." ahhh, well for all the countless "updations" that just tell you how my boring day was....that i know most of you dont read, and dont care for...this is gonna be another one :-D i hate money...money problems to be more clear. i dont know anyone else who pays $500 a month for car insurance...which sucks bc I DO...i got that every month along with a $200 car payment...followed by a $60 cell phone bill...the thing that sucks the most is next month i have to pay my annual $800 car insurance....i can barely pay this month off, so i have to work my ass off these next few weeks to get this payed for, which scares me bc i cant let it interfere with my "seeing mike time"...yesterday we both worked all day..and didnt get to see eachother...sucked ass...i hate going a day without him, we've spoiled eachother in that situation alot...which isnt a bad thing at all :-D well so far this summer wasnt so bad...gonna get better...got some shows in august, and maybe an evanescence/seether/breaking benjamin/3 days grace show at the end of this month.....Finch and Proj Rev in august...woo hoo... ok so once again this is a waste of an entry, but now that ive spent time writing it, im not deleting it..i thought it was gonna say more..but i get bored with it when im not in the mood... **will be updated soon with more crap you dont want to read** Current Mood: bored Current Music: breaking benjamin - sooner or later

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June 21st, 2004

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June 15th, 2004

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May 26th, 2004

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07:41 pm - feelin crappy, crappy out...simply..CRAPPY ok so ive come to the bitter conclusion that my songwriting techniques suck..no no no..simply..my songwriting sucks...for some reason i have the thoughs in my head..but i can but them to paper...and it sucks compltely bc i want it all to come out..hopefuly into a song...so yea..thats that... anyway...this might be a very long entry bc i have nothing to do...oo exciting news for me...actually a couple peices of exciting 411..found out jessica simpson is gonna star ina new make of the movie "dukes of hazzard"..she will be miss daisy herself..AND i just bought, 2 nights ago, a replica of her engagment ring..its so beautiful..and it was only $25..yea yea i am a big jessica simpson fan..laugh all you want..shes got an amazing voice...lately ive been purchasing a whole hell of alot of cd's...ill be a music critic for ya now...gove ya a review of some cds....lets see within the past 2 weeks iver gotten.... New Found Glory~Catalyst- awesome cd..every song sounds differnt..much mroe mature than their old stuff, but just as good..and the harmonys in some songs are amazing...****1/2 Alanis Morisette~So Called Chaos- havent really listened to alot of it yet honestly, but the tunes that ive heard are pretty good...very different from her other stuff...shes matured alot from her jagged little pil days..we'll leave it as that....*** Avril Lavigne~Under My Skin- i love this album..very mature..she went in the other direction sk8er boi was in...awesome album..my favorite this week...***** Kimberly Locke~One Love- yea im not a fan of this album..maybe 2 or 3 good songs..otherwise its really not that great...songs sound very similar....*1/2 Beyonce`~Dangerously In Love- oooo soo good...i bought it bc i REALLY like naughty girl...its a sexy song..and alll teh songs on teh album are like that..its soo good..so if your ever in a pickle deciding what cd to listen to while making out...this is deifnitly the one....***** MethodMan~prequal to something- not too sure..not really a fan, i bought it for mike.lol..he seems to enjoy it so i guess its good.. yea so for me..thats alot of cds in 2 weeks.i usually burn cds..make mixes.. wow im so fucking broed right now.....i cant wait for the summer...i just wanna go to the beach...hang out more...im sick of this weather...one day its hot as a crotch the next its cold and raining....make up your mind!! yea so i was thinking of getting another radio show this summer...i know 88.1 is not the biggest radio station on the island, but hey its something ...get some product of the 80s playing on the airways...uugghh i remember the good ol' times when jenn and i had a show together.."Sum Dum Kidz"...good times.. wow i actually remember alot of good times jenn and i had..what the fuck happened, i didnt think people could be so selfish..i mean..she got a boyfriend, who was part of the clique..and dropped us all...completly..last time i saw her was christmas..we used to be inserperable...its rediculous..ive given up on it...a 4 year friendship..a best friendship...completly gone...vanished...ive tried so hard to mend the broken peices...absolutly nothing worked..its almost like she doesnt care anymore...actually i KNOW she doesnt care anymore...and i always say i dont care either..but deep deep down inside i would really like to fix everything and spend time with her ...its just we ahd so much fun when we hung out..just being our silly selves..we were so alike, but now it comes to this..and i guess were not so much alike..bc i would never drop a 4 year friendship out of nowhere..for no apparent reason...pisses me off, but i cant let it get to me...im happy with alot of things now...especially mike..he just makes every stupid, annoying thing in my life go away..so mnay people have said how awesome we are together..i was reading laurens journal before writing this and she said that shes never been happier for mike, bc she thinks im perfect for him..it makes me feel so good...about us...uugghh its sooo great to have someone like him in my life..its so hard to explain how i feel for him, bc its something ive never felt before, juts knowing that im gonna be with him for the rest of my life..its amazing....last night he took me out to dinner..then we went back to his house...after a while we just found ourselves in eachothers arms..jusy laying there..and it was great...talking about stuff other guys would get freaked out by...but we actually have convorsations about stuff like that...he makes me feel good about myself all the time, and im so comfortable with him, he makes me feel so secure, and safe..oh my god its amazing, hes amazing, and i love him so much... yea so obviously i had no work tonight, nice to have a night off when im feeling like shit...sometimes it sucks to be a girl..lol..wow ok, ive been sitting on this computer since 630, its now 930...thats pathetic...well excuse, i dont feel good... at all...i think ill get off now, maybe attepmt to write some more...this journal entry ahs given me new light on things...and also gave me some mew shit to write about...ok, im out now, people are strating to yell bc they need to computer....peace owwwtttt.... Current Mood: crappy Current Music: saves the day- nightengale

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May 22nd, 2004

04:30 pm - summer time has showed his face........ ok so yesterday was a good time..well last NIGHT...yesterday i worked a 10 hour host shift..it was hell...but michele and i made it fun..lol..then i went to applebees with a bunch of people...quite a sausage fest..lol..i was the only girl..but they were mad cool and funny people...mike, aj, aaron, chase, steve, scott, fassel (hopefully spelled right), kenny, and anthony....great time..but SHITTY SERVICE..man i wanted to hit him....and its soo true..u ask a stupid question u get a stupid answer..lol...mad funny....anyway...then we went to steves house..chilled in the backyard..shared some laughs...good time...nice night...then the worst part of EVERY night spent with mike...leaving him....i hate leaving him..i hate saying good bye to him..i CANT WAIT til the day we wont ahve to anymore...when i can go to sleep next to him and wake up in teh same sopt every morning...ahhhhh..i love it..i love him...soooo much...i can never tell him that enough...its so great.... so i wake up this morning..to a beautiful morning..layed in bed til about 1130...then woke up showered...then watched "holiday in teh sun" a marykate and ashley movie..good one i might add...but now..its 445 and i have to get my ass in work for the rest of the night... oh by teh way..its our 3 month anniversary today :-D! soo gooooddd....(like pie) ;-) hopefuly i get out early enough to see him tonight........peace owwtttt pooosseeee Current Mood: crazy Current Music: nada ting

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May 18th, 2004

04:48 pm - silly updation well well well...been a while since ive updated....but im bored now so i must....worked a short shift this morning..1130 til about 2....i was the "To-Go Ho"...as we call eachother at wonderful Rubys..got my tax return yesterday....ya know..for as much as they take from me working my ass off serving people i dont like...they should really give back alot more than they do...sucks, but whatever, money is money... i have no patience for these journal things...maybe i have add....i get preoccupied with otehr stuff...now i dont even feel like writing anymore..so im not...so there...ima go sing..oooooo.....peace owwwtt Current Mood: bored Current Music: alicia keys- if i aint got you

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May 9th, 2004

09:46 pm - ok.. ok..so i havent updated in a week....been a bit busy..not really..just lazy...well last entry i put in..i was going out for coffee with AJ...well..we went..hadda nice time....then i find out..on the way home from my house he gets into a bad accident.....sucks completely....totalled "the fixxer"...hes honestly the luckiest man right now....im so happy he only had cuts and bruises...from teh looks of the pictures of the truck...im surprised he didnt break anything....but its awesome hes alright..quick recovery!...and i wish him all teh wellness..lol..if that makes sence.. ok so my birthday was about 4 months ago or so...and my dads family decides to celebrate it now...so last night i took off from work..and the fam came over ot celebrate mine, my cuzn rachels and my moms b day...fine by me i gotta cool *friends* pocketbook and a *friends* book outta it...which reminds me...*FRIENDS* last episode...maaadd good...AJ and i cried..i guess were the only serious *friends* watchers..lol..or just the really emotional ones..lol...mad cool night though we went to applebees afterwards which was cool..gettin AJ outta the house...anyway after the fam b day gathering...mikey and i split and caught up wiht AJ aaron scott and kim....mini golfing..good times good times... so its mothers day today...went to breakfast mad early..then went to best buy.bought me teh outkast cd..its actually very awesome...anyhoo..then i go to work...dreadful work...1st sunday i worked in about a year..and it was horrible...made like $45 bucks..sucks..never doin that again... but now for the best part..i get to see mike!...sooo goood...makes my day...i love it!..gets me all tingly inside...eeeekk!!..:-D...ok im off gonna take a super quick shower...peace owwwttt! so yea its mothers day Current Mood: chipper Current Music: juliana theory! aaahhh soo good!

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May 3rd, 2004

12:55 am - i remember this show! You are WILD AND CRAZY KIDS. You couldn't get through life without a little fun... or a neon colored t-shirt. You are a team player and really into Omar Gooding. GO YOU! Which old school Nickelodeon show are you? brought to you by Quizilla

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12:30 am - yeee haw well before i hadda stomache ache...so i didnt go to mikes...then it kinda went away..and i getta call from AJ....wants to hang..so the 2 of us go to starbucks..we were there for about 2 hours...talking..nice night..its been a while since ive talked to aj seriously...was mad cool...must do that more often... i cant wait to get this band thing stated up...i spent the whole night talking to aj about pot80 and stuff..and makes me soo anxious to get things goin...i cant wait....we might have a practice wednesday night at teh warehosue...that is if the drumset is all kosher and shit...hopefully it wil be....sweeet..... Current Mood: tired Current Music: new life- pot 80s

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May 2nd, 2004

07:03 pm - smithtown tacobell..DONT GO THERE BLAAAAHHHHH!!!just got home from teh mall with kelly and michael...we went to taco bell after..omg...my stomach is hurting so much..i knew when i bit into the quesadilla that it wasnt the same..especialy bc the one kelly got was actually doughy...like..not cooked at all..she hadda bring it back...only good thing was the mt dew..best drink ever....but i went to put teh cup int eh cupholder in my car and the burger king soda from about a week ago was in tehre and it leaked through s now i have to clean out my car bc the holder is full of soda..yummm...then ima clean my room a bit..and then throw on a dvd and relax....so..peace owwttt Current Mood: crappy Current Music: nothing

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11:22 am - "i have no where to go...." ahh last night was very cool...got home from work...and headed over to someplace else for teh battle of teh bands with CATAKLYZM...awesome show...and of course they won...kinda knew that before they played....but yea..everything sounded really great and the added effect of the blacklight paint was really awesome...so maaaddd props to cataklyzm for last night... so now kelly and i are being lil ol' ladies and heading over for a sunday matinee (no not the song by the sleeping)...going to see "Mean Girls"...its a lindsay lohan thing we do..lol..their silly movies...but good ones non the less....then i dont believe i have any plans for tonight...prolly gonna see mike...:-) ok this weather is gettin to me...y cant it just stay nice for at least a fricken few days...anyhoo..im off to the matinee :-D laterrr Current Mood: chipper Current Music: finch- grey matte

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May 1st, 2004

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01:57 am - the sound....the smell...the face....so funny ahhhhh work work work..alll day long...thats what i did...but came home then went to mikes at 10...chilled with mike and aj at mikes..watching family guy...only for a lil..then decided to go to the witches brew..never been there before...pretty cool place..very diff asmosphere from everywhere else...the most time spent there was fricken waiting for a tabel...we sat down and half teh people we were with bounced on us...wtf?!?!...so mike me aj and aaron decided to go to a diner...we didnt even get anything there..so it was a waste of gas and time i guess...lol..whatever..so we hit up empress diner....had some goooood laughs..listened to some gaaaaayyy music...i reccomend everyone download "slam dunk da funk" by 5ive...haha..great shit..funny shit...lol..wooooo...my stomach still hurts thinkin bout it....anywhooo....then we came home....good times tonight...so tomorrow i do nothing til about 4..then i head to work....then i head to cataklyzm shooowwww....its at someplace else in farmingdale?..."where"..."someplace else"...."yea ok..where though?".....ha.....ok..im good to go to bed now....peace owwttt..... Current Mood: tired Current Music: :+:+:-silence-:+:+:

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April 29th, 2004

11:39 pm - "for every sprinkle i find...i shall kill you......." ok this is gonna be a quikie..lol...hadda quick day of werk today and was so out of it i went home..then went out with kelly...then went to mies :-D ahh that always makes my day..seeing him...we saw kill bill volume 2...awesome movie..but u have to see the first one first..i HIGHLY reccomend it...anyway..came home afterwards bc i wasnt feeling good all day...and after teh movie i hadda bad head ache..so i headed home...layed down couldnt sleep..so i came on the comp...now im incredibly broed..tired..and STILL have a head ache..and this computer screen isnt making it any better....so ima head to bed...this entry was pointless..sorry for those who actually read these...this is a boring one...like the others...long day and night of werk tomorrow...errrr......ok..im outtieee peace owwwttt Current Mood: sick Current Music: 99 steps closer (linkin park jayz mash up)

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April 28th, 2004

04:31 pm - thank you for shopping at guitar center... ok this day went by fast, but it was a good day none the less....bought some shit...(sorry baby)...yea i wasnt supposed to spend anymore money but kelly and i went to the coinstarr machine with all my coins..and i got fuckin $98! so i went to target to return something..and got the limited edition lynyrd skynyrd 30th anniversary collection..which is awweessome...theres 30 songs on it...i also got a "woman and song" cd..its got alot of good songs on it..all woman singers...sweet deal..then i got the best movie ever made.."who framed roger rabbit"...and teh blue collar comedy tour..funniest fuckin thing..then we headed over to taco bell..got us some goood fooood...then hit up guitar center..i needed a new strap for mah bass..nice dark purple velvet one..which they ripped me off i jsut noticed..the strap says $17.99...i looking at teh receipt and they charged me $19.99..assholes..they always find a way to fuck people over..so AJ if u ever werk there..charge people for what the damn price tag says...lol... oh lovely now im home and in about 40 minutes i got werk for the night..goody goody gumdrops...but im sorta looking forward to gettin it over with bc after that we gots ourselves a band meetin!..woo hoo..start talkin bout what songs to cover..figured thats what we would start off doin..some covers get a feel for everyones style...but as for me now...i gotta get ready for werks...peace owttt dawgs! Current Mood: chipper Current Music: mad hatter- lynyrd skynyrd

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April 24th, 2004

03:48 pm - know that we have always been down.... ok well today sucks alot...i was planning on getting someone to cover for me tonight so i can hang with mike..guess thats not happening...woke up went to get my hair cut..finally..then went to rubys...everont is a double so no one could cover..which sucks..so now im here awaiting till 5 when i have to go to work..hopefully ill get out early enough to see him..errrr...so not in the mood to go to work..gonna be a long night... hopefully tomorrow sometime were gonna have this "band meeting"..i really wanna get this started..gives me something to do in my spare time...i tend to have too much of that recently..ok its beautiful out..and im sitting inside on the computer...somethings wrong with that..oh well...now i gotta go somewhere and get my mom a b day present..her birthday is tomorrow and i ahvent even thought about what to get her...beena lil busy...ill think of something hopefully....ok ima outta here!..peace owwttt Current Mood: blah Current Music: 311- beautiful disaster

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